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Monday, July 18, 2005
this is the 101st entry !!!!! cheers!! haha... this background music is so so so so so nice..yeah!!! haha feel better after sleeping for 4 hrs liao haha
today wenta sch alone... haix so sian cos wee kiat was sick... haha after 1st aid course everyone is feeling so sick.. jeff feeling unwell, me too and wee loon...!!! hiax...dun realli wana tok bout sch.. went home after sch straight away....
went lot 1... den look look got wet and hard.... super hard.. soft...!!! haha it ain't wat u thinking...-__-''' haha they r al gel... haix.. bought one tube and went for lunch alone.. today solo all the way.. i dun like mon and thurs cos have to go home alone.. loneliness isn't something nice.. haix..
haha today quite fun lol... dunno y pple say jc life by default is sad.. think they too serious bout study..tt's y.. haha u noe tt gp teacher in our class today is performing on national day with jeff... haha he will be acting as a merlion!!!! lol haha can't wait for tt day to come...
this week going to be bbbbbuuuusyyyyy...... kegan told me jus noe tt tml got pw meeting.. but tml got ncc.... and i arrange it on sunday nite... funni... last minute den decide... worst still next mon got spa!!! then got ncc camp feast.. u noe something like adventure camp..and the clts will be in charge.haha.. be afraid veri afrid cos i forgot all the safety precautoins liao >_<..haha ... booking in in the afternoon den gotta book out at nite to do interview...!!! kinda busy... jc life so busy but so fun haha almost everyday got special event occuring haha .. better den study study study..lol....
hhaha cousin jus called to ask me how to polish boots how to iron uniform lol seems like he join npcc..hmph..npcc not ncc hmph.. but still teach him.. quite easy one budden he say his sch insturctors say no wax no starch .. realli wanna noe how they iron....
keep these short later pple say i'm writing gp agian..lol.. jun xian was there at ncc day olso forgot to write his name..=D.. be happy have fun everyday... can't wait for this sun to come can finally rest.. next week gonna be busy at well haha... busy ubsy busy!!!
haix stared at the sky looking at the stars... wondering .. wondering whether my efforts and sacrifices was worth it.. wondering whether my contribution have any impact... spent lotsa times and effort helping out others... haix.. dunno wat would i get in return... looking again... thinking again.. should i stop helping.. should i stop contributing... should i change ...?? being selfish?? withdraw from ncc?? quit 1st aid?? join this 2 cca to serve others budden realli hard to cope... haix...dun realli noe..kinda stress up rite now.. needa find someone to tok to.. my friends?? haix dun realli wanna tok to them bout this..haha cos i suppose to be not serious type one ...wondering.. wondering... ...
looking at the stars.. where will i go in the future..?? where would i end up in?? where would we be after death?? where is the final destinations for all souls?? will i be up there with the stars?? haha quite lame. Solitude.. peace... the silence is disturbing... scary...family all asleep... haix every passing second.. we r aproaching death.... who knows maybe tml when i wenta toilet i might slip and die? maybe eating get choke?? crosing road get knock down?? no one knows the future.. present.. is someting not to be taken for granted.. treasure it.. dun wait till it's too late...
once again... walking round the house =D cos i couldn't sleep... look all around me.. look at my brother, sister, mum, dad... they look so different from wat i remember.. spending too much time outside with my friends.. serving others.. spending less and less time at home with my family.. haix.. sometimes i realli wanna quit sch.. sch isn't suitable for pple like me..but will miss out all the fun stuff... miss my friends.. .i jus wanna escape from all this jus wanna relax and rest.... a long time nv sit down and do nothing liao and think nothing... wanna slack olso cannot find time..haix..wanna spend more time with my family...
sit down switch on television to make the room nosiy...thinking ..bout her ... dun realli wanna think liao..no time... no strength.. no motivation...dun wanna write animore.. dun wanna think animore... dun wanna be so serious..hahaha lol..ok..den later i still got sch..zzz.. kk heehee haha wat's the diff between bird and fly?? =D stupid lame qns heard in clt course...lol....
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